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Author Squared: Samuel Park & Duncan Jepson

AUTHOR SQUARED
Samuel Park
Duncan Jepson
Two Authors chat about writing, books, and everytihng in between!
Please welcome Duncan Jepson, author of All the Flowers in Shanghai, available now, and Samuel Park, author of This Burns My Heart, available in paperback in March, to On the Bookcase !
Samuel Park: Congratulations on the release of your book! It's a pleasure to e-meet you and be interviewing you about your work. There was so much in All the Flowers in Shanghai that I could relate to, and I'm delighted that I get to ask you about it.
Duncan Jepson: Thank you very much and thanks for taking the time to read my book and ask me these questions.
SP: You’ve had a successful career in film and documentaries. What inspired you to turn to novels, and what specifically inspired you to tell this particular story? Did your background affect the process at all?
DJ: Storytelling by writing feels to me like planting seeds and then leaving the tending and cultivation to another, the reader and their imagination. I think a good book propels the reader on a journey that is as much theirs as the authors. Film is different, it’s direct and fast, over in a couple of hours. Whether comedy or tragedy, it must be executed precisely enough to suspend disbelief for the duration, taking the viewer away on the filmmakers’ journey. For this story, writing seemed to give me more freedom to explore and immerse myself in the character and ideas than the demands of film.
SP: I really enjoyed your use of a female point of view in the novel. Not only that, but you tell the story in the first person. Could you talk a little about the challenges of doing so, and maybe discuss how one can successfully pull it off?
DJ: Well, I
hope I pulled it off successfully. I just tried to s tick to the basic rule of creating a character and remaining true to it. The challenge seemed to be telling the story of a character who is not Western and does not think in a Western manner f or Western readers. For example one of the difficulties is that what Westerners see as “forsaking individuality,” something abhorrent, in Asian cultures at that time and even now it was not questioned because the concept of the “individual” was very much absent, so it wasn’t a sacrifice—it was (and is) simply what happens.
SP: I hope I'm not ruining it for anybody by noting that your author’s note at the end of the book talks a lot about your mother. How did she inspire the book, and how did she affect your experience of writing it?
DJ: My mother had told me that she had not wanted to return to Singapore after she had qualified as a doctor in England in the mid 60s. My grandparents had not required anything specific of her but my mother explained there were expectations and at the very least she wanted to marry someone she loved. I think many Westerners don’t realize that these expectations still exist and are widely felt. I wanted to explore the idea that these expectations are actively passed from mother to daughter, not necessarily imposed by the father, and to understand what it would take for a woman to reject these traditions.
SP: The book contains a lot of very precise descriptions of life in Shanghai. What was the process of researching life in 1930s Shanghai? Were there any discoveries that you made that you weren't expecting?
DJ: In the early 1990s I spent a lot of time in Shanghai, particularly at the Peace Hotel where jazz and Western dancing had been available since the 30s and 40s. I spent much time walking around by myself and listening to people’s experiences. I think the main discovery was just how modern Shanghai had been and how people had embraced the world openly. People (including young Chinese) don’t realize that the Communist dogma and perspective is only recent.
SP: Readers are often fascinated by China. What is it about this country—its customs, history and culture—that you think intrigues people so much? Are there any insights about it that you hope people will get out of the book?
DJ: In the early 90s I met a long-lost relative who was a farmer. He lived in quite a remote part of Fujian Province in China. I was full of passion for events in China such as the Cultural Revolution and when I asked him about living through it he said he’d hardly noticed it. I liked the idea that someone like Feng could live isolated from events simply by virtue of the very culture and traditions that led China to revolution—insularity by the elite. How people thought and behaved is one of the most interesting aspects of history and culture. We live in a small world and we have to start understanding each other better, we’re not all the same and we are not all going to immediately believe in the correctness of one way of living, whatever that may be. I hope by reading the story people will think a little about how different human beings can be at a very fundamental level. China now looms large in the world and we’re all desperate to know what that means.
Thanks Samuel and Duncan!
Samuel Park is an Assistant Professor of English at Columbia College Chicago. He is a graduate of Stanford and the University of Southern California, where he earned his doctorate in English. He is the author of the novella “Shakespeare’s Sonnets” (Alyson Books, 2006) and the writer-director of the short film of the same name, which was an official selection of numerous domestic and international film festivals. He currently divides his time between Chicago and Los Angeles.
Duncan Jepson is the award-
winning d
irector and producer of five feature films. He has also produced documentaries for Discovery Channel Asia and National Geographic Channel. He was the editor of the Asia-based fashion magazine West East and is a founder and managing editor of the Asia Literary Review. A lawyer by profession, he lives in Hong Kong.
Neely's New Years Nuggets

With each New Year, we ask our subscribers to tell us what book(s) generated the liveliest discussions in the year just completed. Many groups also tell us about some of the fun things they did. The results are always interesting, and they help us all to make the book group experience so enjoyable.
This year, we also asked our own Literary Director, Neely Kennedy, to reflect on five of her own favorite discussibles of 2011. Maybe they'll be your book club's favorites too!
The Tiger's Wife by Téa Obreht
In a Balkan country mending from war, Natalia, a young doctor, is compelled to unravel the mysterious circumstances surrounding her beloved grandfather's recent death. Searching for clues, she turns to his worn copy of The Jungle Book and the stories he told her of his encounters over the years with "the deathless man." But most extraordinary of all is the story her grandfather never told her-the legend of the tiger's wife.
The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern 
The circus arrives without warning. No announcements precede it. It is simply there, when yesterday it was not. Within the black-and-white striped canvas tents is an utterly unique experience full of breathtaking amazements. It is called Le Cirque des Rêves, and it is only open at night. But behind the scenes, a fierce competition is underway—a duel between two young magicians, Celia and Marco, who have been trained since childhood expressly for this purpose by their mercurial instructors.
The Sense of an Ending by Julian Barnes
This intense new novel follows a middle-aged man as he contends with a past he has never much thought about—until his closest childhood friends return with a vengeance, one of them from the grave, another maddeningly present. Tony Webster thought he’d left all this behind as he built a life for himself, and by now his marriage and family and career have fallen into an amicable divorce and retirement. But he is then presented with a mysterious legacy that obliges him to reconsider a variety of things he thought he’d understood all along, and to revise his estimation of his own nature and place in the world.
The Marriage Plot by Jeffrey Eugenides 
Are the great love stories of the nineteenth century dead? Or can there be a new story, written for today and alive to the realities of feminism, sexual freedom, prenups, and divorce? With devastating wit and an abiding understanding of and affection for his characters, Jeffrey Eugenides revives the motivating energies of the Novel, while creating a story so contemporary and fresh that it reads like the intimate journal of our own lives.
IQ84 by Haruki Murakami
A love story, a mystery, a fantasy, a novel of self-discovery, a dystopia to rival George Orwell's-1Q84 is Haruki Murakami's most ambitious undertaking yet: an instant best seller in his native Japan, and a tremendous feat of imagination from one of our most revered contemporary writers.
Author Squared: Kelly O’Connor McNees & Wendy McClure

AUTHOR SQUARED
Kelly O’Connor McNees
Wendy McClure
Two Authors chat about writing, books, and everytihng in between!
Please welcome Kelly O’Connor McNees, author of The Lost Summer of Louisa May Alcott, and Wendy McClure, author of The Wilder Life to On the Bookcase! Take it away ladies!
Kelly: Wendy, Laura Ingalls Wilder’s Little House books depict the day-to-day tasks that filled the “pioneer life” in the 1880s, especially the work typically done by women. Louisa May Alcott's Little Women, while set in long-settled Concord, Massachusetts, during the Civil War, also features details of 19th century young women’s routines: sewing, knitting, embroidering, taking firewood and blankets to the poor, baking, and generally working to make the home a “haven.” Anyone who tried to take my washing machine away would have to pry it from my cold, dead hands—and yet I read these books with a fascination and a sense of longing. What is the deal? Why do we love to read about this stuff?
Wendy: Oh yes—I always find these details and tasks so reassuring somehow. And I remember a line I read in Barbara Walker’s introduction to The Little House Cookbook, something about how all of Laura Ingalls Wilder’s extensive descriptions “seemed to compel participation.” In the case of the cookbook, of course, it’s actual hands-on participation, but I think any engaged reader becomes a kind of participant just by following along. These descriptions have such an intimacy to them, because through them you inevitably inhabit Laura or one of the March girls and find yourself daydreaming in their kitchens. I know I can recall butter-making with Ma Ingalls almost as vividly as my own memories of helping my mother peel potatoes.
As for that longing you mentioned—maybe it’
s because on some level we recognize that we’re not truly there, that there’s a boundary we can’t fully cross, even while we know we don’t really want to sew seams in muslin sheets. We know, though, that we’re at the edges looking in.
Which leads me to my question to you, Kelly, since you created so many of those descriptions of domestic rituals in your own novel: What were the challenges in writing those scenes? Did you feel like you were actively creating this world—or, as a writer of historical fiction based on real people—simply entering it? Or to put it another way, what side of that divide between reader and character is the writer on?
Kelly: Whoa, Wendy. That is deep.
I think in historical fiction there is a fine line between immersion and suffocation. Just the right amount of carefully selected detail and context and atmosphere can create a vivid world. But too much of this—too much exposition and description of every object, gown, and housekeeping chore that might seem foreign to a modern reader—and we are overwhelmed by the weight of it all. Too much of this and the story gets lost. I felt as the writer I was always walking that line, trying to figure out when to expand on something (like the scene that goes into great detail about how Louisa and Anna make candles) and when to scale back to keep the story moving forward, to maintain the tension that makes characters real people to us. I think I succeeded some and probably failed some at that task. It is an ongoing negotiation. But you don’t want the reader to see that struggle—you want to polish the story to a high shine so that the way it is appears seems to be the only way it could have been—if that makes any sense! So I would say I wanted it to seem as if the reader and I were just entering this world that already existed, when in fact I had to work very hard to create it in a particular way.
Speaking of craft, I have a question about your approach to memoir. A novel offers the writer ultimate control—we can change and shape every single detail. But nonfiction in its commitment to truth is much more like life: messy and asymmetrical, it can resist a tidy narrative. And yet your true story is such a compelling read! I want to know how you did it! When you first made a list of the places you wanted to visit and the people you wanted to meet in your efforts to examine the connection you and so many of us share with the Little House books, I imagine you had some idea in mind of what you would find and perhaps an idea of what shape the book would take. But as you went through the journey, I imagine that some of those expectations were thwarted. Was it difficult to make the book adapt as your understanding of Laura culture changed and deepened? Were there any experiences that worked out so differently, you couldn't include them? What dictated the structure of the book?
Wendy: It's been a strange process, Kelly, trying to shape lived experience into narrative, especially with this book. With my first memoir, I’d had a few years’ perspective on the events I was writing about, and time served as a very good editor, filtering out irrelevant details.
It was definitely harder with The Wilder Life, where I had less time to ruminate on every experience AND I went into every trip knowing I’d be writing about it a month or two later. Sometimes I really had to struggle with my own instincts when I did all these things, especially when they were weird and uncomfortable (as with the weekend with the end-times-obsessed folks). I had to decide whether it was better to doggedly stick it out for the sake of the book, or just go with my gut. Usually I wouldn’t know whether or not I made the right decision until I went back and tried to write about it later. Thus some of things I did for the sake of the book got left by the wayside—getting fitted for a corset, for example—because in the end it just didn’t feel interesting enough to be worth recollecting.
And then there were experiences that didn’t turn out anything like I’d hoped but were extremely crucial. De Smet, South Dakota, was one of the most important destinations in my homesite trips, and yet I left early. For lack of a better phrase, something “wasn’t working” about being there—something didn’t feel right—and after one full day there, I found myself impulsively hitting the road instead of staying another night like I’d planned. About an hour after I left, I thought, “what did I just do?” I couldn’t shake the feeling that I’d blown it, that I’d made a huge mistake. It was hard to go back and write about it and figure out my reasons for leaving, but it was extremely useful, too, and I’m glad I let go of my expectations.
Speaking of expectations: What happens when your characters change course on you? Do you have a sense of where someone’s story is going, or do they take the lead? I only have to worry about myself as a protagonist, but I imagine that with fiction it’s much different . . .
Kelly: Fiction writers tend to fall into two camps: planners (the outliners) and pantsers (the writers who fly by the seat of their pants). I’m always a little embarrassed to admit this for some reason—maybe it feels a little like cheating—but I am a planner, in writing and in life. I can’t go to the grocery store without a list, and I can’t start a novel without an idea about what’s going to happen. That said, even when I do have grand plans for my characters, sometimes they surprise me. One of the characters in a novel I am working on right now recently did this. Rowena is an upper-class woman who, because of her husband’s death in the Civil War and her father’s deteriorating mental health, has lost all her money and is trying to figure out what to do with her life. I knew she would be pretty angry about what happened, since it was completely out of her control, and I knew she would start to resent her friends who continued to live comfortable lives. But I wasn’t sure exactly how she would express what she was feeling. Then one day I was writing a scene in which a friend comes to visit, and out of nowhere, Rowena steals a brooch off the woman’s coat as she hangs it up in the hall. I thought it was an isolated incident, but a few scenes later she was stealing again. I had not planned for this, but Rowena has a mind of her own.
Those little surprises happen, I think, when the character becomes real enough to be a whole person who (strange as it sounds) really is capable of acting independently of your will. The trick is to have a plan but a loose plan, so that the characters can change it.
Last question for you, Wendy—what are you working on now?
Wendy: I’d love to say I’m working on a book, but the truth is that I’m working on planning my wedding next month! But at my job at Albert Whitman and Company, we’ve just launched our young adult imprint, so in between all the craft store shopping excursions, I’m still getting my new-book excitement fix in. Hoping that once the dust and the petals settle, I can start on something new, the way you are.
Kelly: Oh, boy. Planning a novel has nothing on planning a wedding. Wishing you and your sweetie a lifetime of happiness, with lots of time for reading and writing!
Thanks Kelly and Wendy!

Kelly O'Connor McNees is a former editorial assistant and English teacher. Originally from Michigan, she now resides with her husband in Chicago.
Wendy McClure has been writing about her obsessions online and in print for nearly a decade. In addition to her 2005 memoir, I'm Not the New Me, she is a columnist for BUST magazine and has contributed to The New York Times Magazine. McClure holds an MFA from the Iowa Writers' Workshop. She lives in Chicago, where she is a senior editor at the children's book publisher Albert Whitman & Company.
Author On the Bookcase: Kate Alcott
Please welcome Kater Alcott, author of The Dressmaker, to On the Bookcase! She tells us about her personal attachment to Pinky—a character in her novel—as well as some undercover work she has done as a journalist.
An Inside Look at Pinky Wade
By Kate Alcott
As I wrote The Dressmaker, Pinky—the spirited female reporter who befriends Tess while covering the Titanic for the New York Times—was the only fictional character who jumped out of my head first almost fully formed. At the end, I was a bit startled to realize almost all of Pinky’s story was derived not from historical record, (like Lady Lucile Duff Gordon) nor inspired by an individual who was actually involved in the Titanic, (like Tess, who was modeled after Lucile’s secretary) but from my own life. I guess that’s not totally a surprise. I am a reporter, and Pinky, more than any other character, reflects my own traits and career ambitions.
Pinky, you were my pal. I know how it feels to clutch a notebook and write as fast as possible while I’m quizzing a source. I’ve found myself getting snarled in a story—most memorably, getting caught between demonstrators hurling rocks and a phalanx of cops in full riot gear (I escaped by crawling out between the legs of one cop who took pity on me). I know how it feels to muster bravado and argue my way into places I’m not supposed to be, and to write furiously to make newspaper deadlines and to love it all—except when it comes to asking for a raise. That’s when women, to this day, have a hard time demanding to be paid what they’re worth.
There’s a scene in the novel where Pinky confronts her editor and stubbornly insists on being paid equally with the male reporters. With great pleasure, I gave her lines I wish I’d had the courage (years ago) to speak myself. Go, Pinky!
Of course, I may have also been subconsciously inspired by Nellie Bly, the wonderfully brave and feisty reporter most famous for retracing the path of Jules Vernes’ Around the World in 80 Days. How any woman could make her way in journalism at that time amazes me. It was hard enough to get serious political assignments when I was starting out in 1966, but Nellie laid out a template that—I like to think—inspired women like Pinky to dream their own versions of going round the world in eighty days. (Nellie did it in a little over 72 days.)
But, she did more than that. Nellie, (whose real name was Elizabeth Cochran) actually faked insanity so she could be incarcerated in the New York insane asylum on Blackwell Island for a story. I too once went undercover to expose abuses in a mental hospital, but as a hospital aide, not by getting myself institutionalized. I remember looking out through a barred hospital window one grim afternoon, admiring the courage Nellie must have had to do it her way.
After creating Pinky, I was curious whether there were any real-life women who covered this hugely important disaster. There was one, a Canadian reporter named Mary Adelaide Snider of the Toronto Evening Telegram. I couldn’t find any stories with her byline. But I was even more pleased to have set Pinky elbowing her way forward from my imagination to the printed page, her satchel flopping against her side, determined to show she could do the job too.

Kate Alcott was a reporter covering politics in Washington D.C., where she and her husband still live.
RGC's New Literary Director's Guest Blog in Ladies' Home Journal
How Sisters Shape Our Lives, a Book Club Discussion by Neely Kennedy
The special bond of siblings can often be the longest and most important relationship in our lives, transcending friends, jobs, parents, and sometimes even marriage. This month’s LHJ Book Club pick, The Bird Sisters by Rebecca Rasmussen, tells the story of sisters Milly and Twiss and the heartbreak, sacrifice, love and secrets that they share through childhood, adulthood and old age.
Here are some tips to enrich your book club discussion, exploring how your sibling relationship has influenced the trajectory of your own life. Encourage members who are only children to participate, as they offer a fresh perspective to the discussion.
B
ack to the Sand Box: Tell a specific story from childhood that recalls a vivid memory about your sibling. Sharing personal anecdotes can make great ice breakers to get a group discussion flowing! Add some depth by asking members to bring along pictures of their sisters or brothers to share.
The sight of the Mason jars led her back to the town fair. She could see Twiss rearranging her jars of Purple Prairie Tonic from a simple line into a pyramid, trying to sell them with a manic energy and an equally manic twinkle in her eye. She could see her mother and father strolling along in the late light, untwining their fingers, it seemed, just so they could entwine them again. And she could see Bett.
Stiff Competition: Competition for mom or dad’s attention is often at the heart of sibling issues. Was this the case in your family? How do you think birth order affects sibling relationships?
“Beauty gives you choices,” their father said to Milly. “Ugliness doesn’t.”… “What about me?” Twiss said. “Your hands belong on a golf club,” their father said.
Compare & Contrast: Identify the similarities and differences between you and your sibling. How have they shaped your personality?
Although Milly was the one who earned perfect grades term after term, Twiss was the one with all of the creativity and the daring. Milly may have known how to balance both ends of Mr. Stewart’s chemistry equations without making a mistake, but Twiss was the one who possessed the heart to be a real scientist.
Life Lessons: What life lessons have you learned together?
Twiss traced the rim of the teacup. “Remember what she used to say?”… The two sisters lingered in front of the sideboard, as if waiting for their mother to appear and caution them, before they took up their lists and went about their chores. “Bone china is like your heart. If it breaks, it can’t be fixed.”
The topic of sibling relationships offers so much to ponder; I hope that your book club enjoys a rich and rewarding discussion of The Bird Sisters.
Holiday Gift for Your Book Club!
Want to delight everyone in your book club with a gift at your holiday get-together? Just order a copy of the new Reading Group Choices 2012: Selections for Lively Book Discussions for everyone – and (shhhh, don’t tell anyone) save at the same time! This month only, you can get 5 or more copies for only $2.95 each! Order the “stocking stuffer special” online – even “mix and match” your order with editions from previous years if you want.
The 2012 edition is filled with 70 discussible titles, complete with Conversation Starters and lots of additional information. See what's new from Lisa See, Marisa de los Santos, Cathy Lamb, Douglas Kennedy, Adrienne McDonnell, Shobhan Bantwal, and Marie Bostwick and ponder the unique ideas of Adrienne Sharp, Evelyn Toynton and Marie Mutsuki Mockett.
Author On the Bookcase: Talia Carner

Please welcome author Talia Carner. She tells us about the research behind her lastest novel Jerusalem Maiden!
Exposing The Secrets of Jerusalem Maiden
By Talia Carner
Willa Cather said, “Most of the basic material a writer works with is acquired before the age of fifteen.”
I was sixteen, though, when I visited Paris for the first time. Walking the streets of Montmartre, the fifty dollars my grandmother had given me to buy us “luxury soaps” burning a hole in my pocket, I suddenly realized with unshaken clarity that my grandmother belonged here. She should never have married, should never have had children. Instead, I saw her as a Bohemian in Paris during the avant-garde era, achieving international acclaim as an artist.
My family joked that they could never balance a plate on my grandmother’s tablecloths. Each of her embroidered flowers raised out of the cloth to full bloom, creating a field of soft sculptures.
The goo of my grandmother’s unfulfilled life and her untapped artistic genius seeped into the veins of her daughters, and I struggled to drain it out of my own.
It was not hard to imagine that my grandmother had been held back by social expectations of her time. But I needed to crawl inside the skin of such a trapped young woman, to go back to when her talent and passion were formed—and immediately stifled. What was the inner world of my feisty grandmother in the early 1900s? What was the life of my young protagonist living in the ultra-Orthodox society of Jerusalem one hundred years ago, compelled to follow a predetermined path that had no patience for the individual sum total of a maiden’s inclinations and wants?
I soon discovered that the lives of Jewish women at that era was veiled in secrecy. Historians, all male and unaware of women's concerns, failed to document the daily lives of ultra-Orthodox Jewish women, while the women believed that suffering in Jerusalem—pestilence, starvation, squalor, maggot-filled water cisterns, and burying half the children they bore—hastened the messiah's arrival.
The Zionist women who immigrated to the Holy Land in the dawn of the 20th century were driven by ideology to seek equality with men in the new Kibbutzim or politics, (such as Israel's late Prime Minister Golda Meir.) They wrote letters home, kept journals, and penned poetry and stories. Not so the ultra-Orthodox Jewish women in the Holy City, who remained invisible behind the walls of their insular neighborhoods, underneath modest clothing and hair coverings, and behind fear of "others." Moreover, they were isolated by religious decrees, Commandments and dictates—as well as by ignorance: while all boys studied from dawn to dusk starting at age three, most girls were not schooled at all.
I had lived in Jerusalem as a student at the Hebrew University and traveled there for work. I had waded in the cool water of Hezekiah's Tunnel and kissed a boyfriend on the ramparts of David Citadel. Now I returned there to record oral histories of old women about their mothers’ lives, interview historians, and read hand-written journals at a special library. In a museum that replicated a typical one-bedroom home down to tools, utensils, linens, furniture, books and mementos, I lingered at the primitive kitchen nook and its miniature attached yard—where women toiled their entire lives. In Mount of Olives cemetery, a tombstone read: “She provided for her husband and family for thirty years,” summing up thousands of unrecorded lives of women who were both the bearers of over a dozen children each and breadwinners in support of their husbands’ lifelong Torah studies.
As I walked the streets of Jerusalem aided by a detailed 1912 map that showed most old buildings intact, my mind's eye stripped the streets of all modernization, for in the Ottoman era even the thoroughfares remained unpaved since biblical times. Nor had there been any running water, electricity, or sanitation. Once, waiting for the traffic light to change near Me’ah She’arim, Jerusalem’s most religiously strict section where my protagonist lived, I stood next to a very young and pregnant woman. Fully covered in spite of the blistering heat, she had four children in the stroller and hanging onto her long skirt. I wondered, how much freedom had this mother had as a teenager—in our modern times—to assess her future?
Just then, a car stopped, blasting pop music through its open windows. And I thought of my protagonist, who, in a world devoid of electricity or even cars, there had been no news broadcast, no music, no sense of what lay beyond the neighborhood. My protagonist Esther knew only the Bible—and whatever she was being told was her destiny: to hasten the Messiah’s arrival. What if she dreamed of being an artist in Paris instead?
My Esther, as I was certain my grandmother should have done, was determined to bolt and follow her talent and her heart.
Author Talia Carner’s latest novel Jerusalem Maiden, (HarperCollins, June 2011) tells the story of a young woman struggling between her passion and faith.
Author On the Bookcase: Adrienne Sharp

Please welcome Adrienne Sharp to On the Bookcase! She tells us about her main character in her newly released book The True Memoirs of Little K.
Mathilde Kschessinska: Mistress of Self-Promotion
She was born in Russia in 1872 into a family of dancers from the Imperial Ballet and she died in Paris in 1971, a princess and the sister-in-law of the Russian emperor in exile. How did she do it? With many little steps.
First. After meeting with the future Nicholas II at her graduation from the Imperial Ballet School in 1890, Mathilde wrote in her journal, “He will be mine!” In pursuit of that goal, she chased him all over Petersburg by foot, by carriage, by troika and finally all the way out of town by train. She caught up with him again at Krasnoye Selo, south of Petersburg, where the court and the regiments gathered for maneuvers each August, and where artists from the tsar’s theaters performed each evening on the little stage there for their pleasure. She charmed the shy Nicholas with a deft bit of flirtation.
Step Two. At some point during their polite, ongoing, and relatively chaste courtship, Mathilde took matters into her own hands and told Nicholas he should set her up as his mistress. Obedient, Nicholas rented for her the house of the composer Rimsky-Korsakov. Weeks passed, however, without a retreat to the bedroom. It took further badgering on Mathilde’s part to consummate the relationship, after which Nicholas gifted her with a necklace of walnut-sized diamonds, which Mathilde wore on stage to advertise her triumph and which all came to know as “the tsar’s necklace.”
Next. When Nicholas married the Princess Alix of Hesse-Darmstadt in 1894, rather than disappearing into the scenery of the Maryinsky Theater, Mathilde promptly took up with one of Nicholas’s cousins, the enormously wealthy Grand Duke Sergei Mikhailovich. This step guaranteed her continued access to the Romanovs—and to Nicholas. Sergei bought Mathilde a summer dacha on the Gulf of Finland to soothe her broken heart, and there she peddled her newly fashionable bicycle around the sandy roads, where she could accidently on purpose run into all the grand dukes who vacationed there, one of whom taught her, she recounts proudly, to execute a graceful figure eight with her two-wheeler.
Later. Sergei built a Nouveau Art style palace for Mathilde on trendy Petersburg Island. Her windows had a view of the Peter and Paul Fortress and beyond it, the Winter Palace and the Great Court. In her own palace, complete with wine cellar and conservatory, Mathilde created her own court and populated it with every man who had a title and every artist, singer, dancer, and musician of note in pre-revolutionary Russia. Thus, Mathilde made sure to occupy a starring role on the stage and off it, and everyone in Petersburg knew her name.
And. Not content to be the mistress of one grand duke, Mathilde soon snared another, this time the baby-faced Grand Duke Andrei Vladimirich, seven years her junior. When the Princess Radziwell asked Mathilde how it felt to have two grand dukes at her feet, Mathilda reportedly laughed and responded, “And why not? I have two feet.”
The Best Step of All. In the summer of 1902, Mathilde gave birth to a son. Bearing a child of uncertain paternity out of wedlock would ruin a lesser woman, but Mathilde had one of her grand dukes sign his name to her child’s birth certificate and the other one adopt the boy, though society whispered that Nicholas himself was the father. Her son attended Petersburg’s most elite lycee, was ennobled in 1911 by a secret decree of Nicholas II, and was being prepared for a career not at the theater, like the rest of the Kschessinskys, but for a career at court, like the rest of the Romanovs.
A Bit of a Scramble. After fleeing Russia following the collapse of the White Army at the end of the Civil War, Mathilde resettled in Paris. Sergei had been murdered along with many other Romanov men, including the tsar, but Andrei had survived the upheaval, and his brother soon became the self-proclaimed Emperor in Exile. In this new world Mathilde promptly married her grand duke. The new emperor bestowed upon her the title of H.S.H, the Princess Romanovsky-Krassinsky and upon her son the title of the Prince Romanov, and the two of them were now grudgingly received by all the titled European heads of state who would have had nothing at all to do with them back in Russia.
The Last Step. Finally, in the 1950s, at age seventy-something, in an effort to rehabilitate her reputation, Mathilde wrote her memoirs, “Dancing in Petersburg,” which some critics have called an outrageous work of fiction. In it, she extols her virtues and erases her vices, muting her ambition, her connivances, and her rapacious spirit, all of which I revive in my novel “The True Memoirs of Little K.” The tsar himself gave her the nickname, as she stood barely five feet high. But other than her size, there was nothing little about her. Nothing at all.
Adrienne Sharp entered the world of ballet at age seven and trained at the prestigious Harkness Ballet in New York. She received her M.A. with honors from the Writing Seminars at the Johns Hopkins University and was awarded a Henry Hoyns Fellowship at the University of Virginia. She has been a fiction fellow at MacDowell, the Virginia Center for the Creative Arts, and the Squaw Valley Writer’s Conference. She is the author of White Swan, Black Swan, The Sleeping Beauty, and The True Memoirs of Little K.
Interview with author Sebastian Barry

Please welcome
Sebastion Barry,
author of On Canaan's Side,
to On the Bookcase!
Who is Lilly (Dunne) Bere?
Lilly is her own woman firstly. She’s the daughter of the Chief Superintendent of the Dublin Police of the old Imperial regime in Ireland, a sister of Willie Dunne in A Long Long Way, and so a sister of Annie Dunne in her own novel Annie Dunne. Willie fought and died in France in the First World War, Annie stayed at home, but Lilly is obliged to flee Ireland and try and make a go of it in America. She is a person rooted in Ireland but grateful in her heart to America for offering her sanctuary, her version of Canaan. Her principle possession is the characteristic of resilience. Otherwise she is servant, mother, grandmother, and friend.
Who inspired her and is she based on anyone you know?
I first wrote about Lilly many years ago, using a pet name of Dolly. She is referred to in the play The Steward of Christendom as her father’s favorite daughter, and as the youngest and the prettiest of the three daughters. Her mother died in giving birth to her. I have been thinking about her for many years and hoped to build the confidence as it were to follow her to America. She is not truly based on anyone, being very much fictional in the actual story, but I did have a great aunt that seemingly fled to America in the terrible circumstances during the Irish war of independence. In the real story, which may also be not quite true, or not untrue let us say, she fled with her fiancée and another of her brothers. The two men for some reason had been under a death sentence from the old IRA. This is a well-buried family secret and even now I know only tiny hints of it. But seemingly one of these men, probably my great uncle, was eventually gunned down on a street in Chicago. Nevertheless, the one time as a little boy that I met ‘Lilly’, she seemed to me the very happiest person I had ever encountered, very pretty even in what were likely her sixties. I remember her outside my father’s house, almost dancing where she stood in the street, full of radiant silent laughter.
Lilly’s life seems largely filled with tragedy and loss. Is she a victim of circumstances or was she in some way responsible for creating her own misfortune?
I think certainly the first, a victim of circumstances, except she does not ‘play the victim’ at any point. There is a moment in the book where she wonders is she responsible for some of what happens. I am anxious for the reader to decide for her!
On Canaan’s Side is largely set in twentieth century America from the 1920s to current day. How did you go about researching the time period and locales to create authenticity?
I read in the usual way a little pyramid of books. I have been interested for decades for instance in the building and the demise of the Ohio Canal, a fabulous feat of engineering built by Irish and Chinese workers, that already was in deep decline by the 1910s. Cleveland has also been an obsession, and I have a wonderful book called the Book of Cleveland produced in the shaken optimism of the early fifties. Also the White House Cook Book was very helpful! I have travelled widely in America and without being sentimental, the elementals and nature of North America always seem to strike in deeply. Tiny things gathered over the years. An ancient cab driver in Washington who told me his father was an Irish American who on his death was discovered to have had two families, obviously one white and one black… Wonderful things that set me thinking, thinking… The four thousand miles I hitched in 1974 as an amazed young Irishman of 17… That Van Gogh self-portrait in Chicago… The astonishing cleanliness of everything in fifties photographs… All the lost worlds of America, as multiple as the lost worlds of Ireland, and they are legion.
In your last novel, The Secret Scripture, the heroine was a 100-year-old woman with a complex life. What is your technique and inspiration for creating such convincing characters of the opposite gender and of an older age?
I wait a long long time for the voice of the character to grow inside to a sufficient degree that their existence is more vivid during the writing of the book than my own. I more or less believe that character lives inside the syntax of sentences, that every person not only has an individual soul but an individual and unique birdsong, a way of expressing themselves. So I wait for that. I have to forget I am a man and 55, in the mountains of Wicklow, and be Roseanne or Lilly for a season!
How are Joe, Ed, and Bill connected to Lilly and what were their fates?
Joe Kinderman is Lilly’s husband, although she also refers to Tadg Bere as her husband, though Tadg did not live long enough for the actual ceremony. So Joe is her first/second husband. Ed is her son by Joe, and Bill is her grandson. Both of them were soldiers in the US army, just as Lilly’s brother Willie was a soldier in the First World War. Indeed Joe Kinderman, like Tadg and Lilly’s father, was a policeman. Their fates…. I would love the reader to find out for themselves. But the fate of Bill was the deepest cause of the book. I had a great friend called Margaret Synge, then in her eighties, whose own grandson came back from the war in Afghanistan, and very very sadly took his life, although, as she said, he was paradoxically ‘full of life’. Margaret said to me, ‘why didn’t He take me instead? I am ready to go.’ It was the most profoundly moving thing I have ever heard in my life. And it is with a moment like that, in another time and another country that On Canaan’s Side begins.
What is the thinking behind telling Lilly’s story over the course of seventeen days with each chapter title counting the days without Bill?
As I was writing the book I knew there was a tension between Lilly’s wish to tell her story and that other imperative, the death of her grandson, and what she wanted to do about that. I was interested in the fact that she was sitting down every day to begin again, take up the thread. I envied her a little, being able to complete her book in 17 days! But I was always aware she wouldn’t linger long, at least in the writing of it. She was to me like a bird in the garden, and I was being very careful not to make a sudden movement, and scare her away. You cannot put the bird back in the garden, or the lily back in the bowl. I was always very grateful that she was still there. 17 times grateful. But I can still sense her in my workroom, as I write this. Writing for myself. Come back, Lilly.
What is the ultimate message or lesson that you would like the reader to take away from On Canaan’s Side?
That the world is an infinitely strange place, which we visit briefly, both to fall in love with it and endure it, and delight in it, and to suffer sometimes beyond the capacity of the human heart. That to have lived a life here is a kind of ultimate achievement in itself. That the sorrows of others are often deeply deeply hidden from us, but are still there. That maybe the seeming ‘old’ have the most urgent and necessary messages for us, that will solve the riddle and lose the knot, but that sometimes we forget to retrieve.
But I would also like the reader to know far more, and better, about it than myself, as readers always do.
Sebastian Barry's plays have been produced in London, Dublin, Sydney, and New York. His novel A Long, Long Way was shortlisted for the Man Booker Prize, as was The Secret Scripture, which was also a Los Angeles Times Book Prize finalist and winner of the Costa Book of the Year Award and the James Tait Black Prize for Fiction, as well as the Irish Novel of the Year. Barry lives in Wicklow, Ireland, with his wife and three children.
Fifth Installment of Novel-in-Progress from the Sisters of the Traveling Computers
Fifth Installment!
Sisters of the Traveling Computers
Novel-in-Progress
Eight great writers are going to produce a progressive novel -- like a progressive dinner! Each one will write a couple paragraphs, a chapter, two chapters (whatever strikes her fancy) round robin style without discussing it with each other. This novel-in-progress will continue through the rest of the year. The scribes are Eleanor Brown (The Weird Sisters), Heidi Durrow (The Girl Who Fell From The Sky), Siobhan Fallon (You Know When The Men Are Gone), Therese Fowler (Exposure), Tanya Egan Gibson (How To Buy A Love Of Reading), Caroline Leavitt (Pictures of You), Sarah Pekkanen (Skipping a Beat), and Rebecca Rasmussen (The Bird Sisters.) All great books for reading groups!
First installment (May 15)
By midnight, he still wasn’t home. Or he wasn’t picking up the phone, which he knew would make her frantic with worry. She couldn’t leave the Martin’s now. Already, Mrs. Martin had told her that just cleaning up after the party wasn’t enough, that she wanted her to also redust (redust!) the figurines on the mantle because “You didn’t take enough care last time.” Should she tell Mrs. Martin how Mr. Martin groped her as she trying to arrange the baby chocolate éclairs on a plate? Should she tell her how Bobby, Mrs. Martin's son, called her a stupid bitch and kicked her out of his room so she wouldn’t catch him doing Jesus knows what?
She wasn’t supposed to use her phone when she was working, but she dialed again. Maybe he was with Bette, his terrifying girlfriend. Maybe he was walking again, clearing his head about what had happened.
Second Installment (June 22)
Maria wasn’t ready to become a grandmother at 42. And that was what she said first when--with his lips trembling—Mark told her that Bette was pregnant. She should have held him. He looked so scared. How could her teenage son become a father before he had a chance to become a man?
That was just five weeks ago, and now she wouldn’t have to be a young grandmother. She wouldn’t have to watch Mark struggle to take care of a family too young. Why couldn’t Mark see the miracle in this moment?
The phone went to voicemail again.
It was a thirty-minute drive home from the Martin’s. Let him be home by then, she thought. Just please let him be safe.
Third Installment (July 1)
“Dammit!” The most ghoulish figurine, the one with the trio of black-eyed children gaping up as if caught forever in the middle of wailing some god-awful song, skittered across the Pledge-shiny mantle and shattered on the floor below.
Maria dropped to the marble and quickly swept the delicate porcelain into the dust rag. Her right knee grinded roughly and she winced, maybe she would have been old enough to have been a grandmother after all.
“What have you done?”
Maria looked up at the doorway and saw Mrs. Martin standing there in that blue dress of hers, the one that had the extra padding in the front and made the woman look top heavy enough to fall on her face. What Maria would give to see Mrs. Martin fall on her face. Though it looked like tonight just might be the night as Mrs. Martin tottered over the smooth floor toward her. Maria tried to judge the distance between the door and the mantle—would Mrs. Martin, who clearly looked like she had finished off every wine bottle in her cellar, notice the missing figurine? Should Maria pretend she was just wiping up a speck of dirt on the marble and get herself to the department store tomorrow to find one of these ridiculous chatkas, get it back on the mantle before Mrs. Martin had finished nursing her hangover and got out of bed at noon? Whenever she had broken something in the past, Mrs. Martin docked her pay a good fifty percent more that the true price of the broken item. Maria knew that vase the cat knocked over, the one she got blamed for, had been a Wal-Mart special rather than any Shannon Irish Chrystal from Macy’s, but she had let it slide.
Now she curled those shattered little goth kids into her palm. “How was the party, Mrs. Martin? Did your guests just love those éclairs?”
“I thought I heard something break in here.” Mrs. Martin seemed unsure. Then she slipped, looked like she was about to do a split and quickly righted herself. That’s what she deserved for wearing those three inch hooker heels, Maria thought. Clear heels! No one could get away with clear heels except… well, hookers. Didn’t Mrs. Martin know that a fifty year old woman had a better chance of keeping her man if she let herself age gracefully instead of buying out Victoria Secret push-up bras and over-botoxing her face?
“Did you say something broke in the kitchen? I’ll get right on it.” Maria rose, again feeling that weakness in her knee. For a moment she felt a rush of sympathy for Mrs. Martin and the skin stretched too tightly across her face, the highlighted hair that only seemed to emphasize her grey, the manic way she held her wine glass as if it’s contents was the only thing allowing her to think that she was still young and lovely in the eyes of her husband.
“The kitchen is a disaster,” the woman sneered, and Maria felt her spine straighten, her sympathy evaporate. The kitchen had been pristine ten minutes ago, all the party’s washing up done and put away. The only thing left should be a few coffee cups from the hanger-ons who pretended to sober up before drunk-driving their Hummers and Mercedes home.
“I’ll take a look before I go,” Maria whispered, eyes down. Then she glanced up, rearranging her face as sweetly as possible. “Oh, Mrs. Martin, I think Bobby wanted you to go on in and say goodnight when your guests left, he seemed like he was waiting up for you.”
Maria left the room, shoving the rag deep into her pocket. She hoped Mrs. Martin walked right in on that little pervert and caught him watching whatever sicko pornos only rich tech-savvy kids had the time and money to become addicted too.
She peeked into the kitchen; the gleaming granite was just as clean as she left it. Two dirty coffee cups in the sink. Two dirty coffee cups now constituted a “disaster.” Maria shook her head and quickly put the mugs into the dishwasher. This family didn’t know the disasters that knocked them upside the head every day: Mr. Martin chasing anything that peed sitting down, Bobby talking to topless girls in Thailand through a web-cam, Mrs. Martin with a liver that wouldn’t see the next decade. Oh no, the only disasters the Martins recognized were the fluctuation of stock prices, a new wrinkle on Mrs. Martin’s rigid face, Bobby not getting into Princeton.
Maria set the alarm system in the foyer and shut the front door without further ado. She was reaching for her cell phone before she was at the end of the driveway and felt a sudden stab of pain. She tugged her hand out of her pocket, heard the chime of glass hitting the asphalt. A shard of figurine had sliced into the pad of her thumb and now jutted out of her flesh. Part of a face hung perpendicular from her finger, and one of the black eyes, souless and cold, stared up at her. It made Maria hesitate and stare back, jolted and afraid. That eye looking at her felt like a bad omen. She tugged it out, threw the piece on the drive, stuck her bloody thumb in her mouth. Then she started jogging to her car, her heart tight in her chest.
Mark, she thought, dear God, Mark, please be all right.
Bette answered the door, looking peeved at Maria for trying to get into her own home. Maria would have naturally apologized for waking anyone up, but the glint of Bette’s eyebrow ring, the twist on the girl’s perpetually red-lipsticked mouth, made Maria itch with irritation instead. First of all, Bette was not allowed to be in the house when Maria was not. Call her old-fashioned or absolutely ridiculous, Maria didn’t care. It was her number one rule. Second of all, there were plenty of bolts on that door that the kids could have locked that Maria had a key to open, but they had decided on using the chain, knowing Maria couldn’t get in, which made her think that they had deliberately locked her out so they could do the sorts of things Maria told herself sickos like Bobby Martin got up to. As if getting Bette pregnant once just wasn’t enough for these two. As if a miscarriage, yes, horrible, but in this case it felt like it was the will of God Almighty Himself, as if a miscarriage hadn’t spared them already.
“Mark’s here?” Maria asked immediately. Bette shrugged in that sullen way that made Maria want to wring her neck.
“Bette, is he here or not? And why weren’t either of you answering your cell phones, I was worried sick—“
“He hasn’t called me since ten,” the girl said. “I don’t know where he is.”
Maria blinked at Bette, noticing for the first time that she was wearing a pair of Mark’s boxers. “What do you mean you don’t know where he is?”
The girl followed Maria’s eyes. “He told me I could stay here, to make myself comfortable.” She put her hand on her hip. “It’s not like I could go home now that everyone knows Mark knocked me up.”
Maria felt exhausted, the room tipping to the left for a moment. It was too much. “Bette, where is my son?”
Bette sighed forcefully in reply, her thick fringe of bangs lifting off her forehead with the effort, and it reminded Maria that the girl was only a teenager after all. Granted, a seventeen-year old, and she lorded that extra year of experience over sixteen-year old Mark, it was part of her strange power over her son, Maria knew. But she was still a girl, at least in calendar years, and she had been through a lot, had been pregnant and lost a baby and now it seemed as if her parents had kicked her out of her home, all before her senior year of high school. If Maria had been a better person, she would have embraced Bette immediately, asked her how she was feeling, offered to make her an ice cream sundae. But Maria didn’t feel like being a better person tonight, she felt the taint of the Martin’s still on her skin, making her impatient and cruel. “Goddammit, Bette, don’t you sigh at me. If you don’t tell me where Mark is I will call the police and tell them to take you with them.”
Bette’s arms dropped limply to her sides. “He went somewhere with Figgy. He didn’t tell me what they were doing but he said not to worry about them unless they didn’t come home by morning. He told me to make up a lie to tell you but… but I couldn’t.” She glanced at Maria and Maria thought maybe there was something scheming in the girl’s eyes, something that didn’t match the poor-little-worried-me story.
Maria sat down at the small kitchen table.
Figgy. That name rang some vague bell. Was he one of Bette’s cousin’s? Yes, that’s right, he was the eldest Figuera boy, eighteen, the one who had repeated his freshman year of high school twice. Mark had never been friends with any of the Figueroa boys before. Before Bette. Maria should call the police right this minute, tell them her son was missing. Mark, her beautiful boy. She thought she had done things right with him, he never missed a day of school, teachers always telling her how good a kid he was with his ‘yes ma’am’, ‘please’ and ‘no thank you’s, his noble attempts at chess club, his weekend work at the Books and Boogie store downtown. And then this girl, this Bette-- who would give a child a French whore name like that anyway? -- always looking like she was laughing at the adults, like she knew something no one else knew, with her lip gloss and frightening piercings and tight black t-shirts that showed the small star tattoo just above her hip, this girl ruined everything. Maria thought of the first time she met Bette, how she was certain she had smelled alcohol on the girl’s breath, how the girl seemed impaired by something more than youth, and when she asked Mark about it the next day, he claimed Bette had had the stomach flu and the anti-nausea pills weren’t sitting well with her. It was the most preposterous thing Maria had ever heard but her son said it with such certainty, so hurt when Maria laughed at him, that Maria thought Mark himself believed the ridiculous story. Now Maria assessed Bette and wondered if she had even been pregnant. She certainly didn’t seem weak or fragile for someone who had miscarried just two days ago.
Maria put her hands over her face. They were only kids. Surely Bette couldn’t have lied about something like that just to tighten her grip. But Mark, where was he? One o’clock in the morning, off with a dumb-as-mud eighteen year old named Figgy, up to God knows what.
Suddenly Maria thought again of the Martins, of Mrs. Martin thickly snoring in her king sized bed, of Bobby on his computer all night, of Mr. Martin sending suggestive text messages to his secretary, and, for the first time in the eight years that Maria had worked for them, she envied them their minor disasters after all.
Fourth Installment (July 22)
The light woke her, curling its fingers gently around the curtains, feeling its way into the room slowly. Squinting against the light, Maria reached out and turned the alarm clock towards her so she could see.
Six-thirty. When had she become unable to sleep in? The night before a day off, she invariably promised herself that she would sleep until some hedonistic hour – eight, maybe – and the next morning, she invariably woke at the same time she did every other morning, feeling, somehow, cheated, but unable to fall back to sleep anyway. Mark, on the other hand, could still keep the nearly-vampirical hours of a teenager, staying up until dawn threatened, and then sleeping happily until the afternoon.
The thought of Mark gave her a vaguely uneasy feeling, and she pushed the clock away. Had he ever come home? She slipped on a bathrobe and padded lightly down the hall, the carpet rough and stiff under her feet, the periodic stains a map of time. In the living room, Bette was sleeping on the sofa, face-down, one hand resting on the floor, the opposite foot hooked over the back, as though she had collapsed in the midst of some athletic event. Her makeup was smudged, her hair messy, and Maria felt a twinge of something maternal as she looked at the girl. Maybe she had been wrong about Bette. Maybe she should trust her more, see the elaborate makeup and aggressive piercings and the tight clothes as what they were: armor against the world, against anyone getting too close.
Mark’s door was closed – still, or again? Maria turned the handle gently, placing her other palm flat against the wood as she pushed. The room was dark, the bed, empty.
She closed the door, the worry in her stomach twisting and growing. Wherever he and the unfortunately-named Figgy had gone last night, they hadn’t come back. She padded softly into the kitchen and looked at her cell phone and the answering machine. No messages.
With a sigh, Maria ran her hands through her hair and rubbed her eyes. She caught a glimpse of herself in the window above the sink, a tired woman with tired eyes and a worried set to her mouth. She hadn’t always been like this, hadn’t always looked this way. Once upon a time she would have been gentler with the Martins, been gentler with Bette, been gentler with herself. But then things happened…life happened, and here she was, with money problems and parenting problems and job problems and a thousand responsibilities as long as her arm, and the gentleness had faded to an occasional guilt that slipped around the back of her mind like a ghost.
And now she had three new problems: Mark was missing, Bette was not, and she was going to have to call Danny and tell him both of those things.
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Fifth Installment
(October 14)
But first she needed coffee. Normally it was the one luxury in her mornings; the ritual that steeled her for the day ahead. When Mrs. Martin had handed her a brown cardboard box to take to Goodwill a few months earlier, Maria hadn’t been able to resist peeling back the tape and peeking inside, as she did on every donation day. Usually, she was lucky to score a nice hardback book or skillet with a scratch on it. She always donated the books to Goodwill after reading them, and gave away one of her own cooking pans as a replacement. But this time, tucked in the middle of the box, was a French Press coffeemaker, still in its original packaging. Probably a gift the Martins had never used and couldn’t return without a receipt.
She’d placed the box in her trunk and had driven off, but she’d stopped a half-mile down the road to retrieve the French Press and put it in the passenger’s seat. That evening, on the way home from work, she’d stopped by the grocery store and had spent ten minutes inhaling the smells of French Vanilla and Dark Roast, Irish Crème and White Chocolate. She’d splurged on a pound, grinding the beans into a little foil package. Now her routine was to spend the first half hour of every day sipping a cup of Hazelnut in silence, feeling her old bones gain strength for the day ahead. Two full containers of Maxwell House, her old brand, were still in her cupboard, and she planned to bring everything full circle by donating them to a food bank soon.
But this morning she slopped the milk into her coffee and sipped before it had a chance to cool, burning her tongue. It didn’t matter. How could she take pleasure in anything, when she didn’t know where Mark had gone, when he’d left such a mess behind?
She heard a noise from the living room and walked over to the doorway. Bette had rolled over sometime in the night, and now her forearm covered her eyes, blocking the faint sunlight peeking in through the window over the couch. Maria narrowed her eyes as she took in Mark’s boxers and the thin white t-shirt riding up, exposing Bette’s belly button. Didn’t the girl own any clothes that actually fit?
She put down her too-hot coffee on the table next to the couch, walked over next to Bette and clapped her hands, hard. The girl didn’t move.
“Bette!” She nudged Bette’s arm with her bare foot. “Wake up?”
“Hmmm?” Bette blinked at her. Without her familiar slash of red, her mouth looked small and vulnerable, and smudged mascara ringed her eyes, reminding Maria of the broken china figure that had lodged in her thumb. The bad omen.
“Mark didn’t come home.”
Betty closed her eyes. “HeswithFiggy.”
“I know. But you said he told me not to worry unless he didn’t come home by morning. It’s morning.”
“What time is it?” Bette had adopted the overly-patient tone of a parent trying to reason with an unruly toddler. Oh, the irony.
“Almost eight,” Maria lied.
“Wake me at ten if he’s not here.”
Heat rose within Maria. “If you’re going to live here –” live here? had she really suggested that? – “then I need your help.”
Bette sat up, her moves exaggeratedly slow, resentment painted over her features. She looked at Maria’s cup. “Do I smell coffee?”
“Have it,” Maria said, handing it to her.
Unfortunately, Bette blew on it before taking a cautious sip. Her eyes met Maria’s over the rim.
“He might not be with Figgy.”
Maria sank into the chair opposite the couch. “You said –”
“I didn’t want you to worry.”
Since when do you care? Maria couldn’t release the words shrieking in her mind; she couldn’t lose Bette, not now. No other link to Mark existed.
“We could go look for him,” Bette said. She shrugged a shoulder, took another sip of coffee.
“Okay,” Maria said. She exhaled, feeling a strange sort of relief. Maybe Mark wasn’t officially missing yet. She could put off the call to Danny.
“I’ll get dressed.” She stood up and left the room, but instead of going upstairs, she went into the kitchen, to make herself another cup of coffee. She heard something from the living room – a rustling sound – and crept to the doorway. She could see Bette, still on the couch, hunched over, holding something to her ear. A cell phone.
Who was she talking to?
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